Why can't I see things as "good"? I lost another FOUR POUNDS OVERNIGHT!! My first thought wasn't, "Oh GOODIE!!!, I'm sticking to my diet and this is the result!!" It was, "I hope I don't have cancer."

The problem in the past has always been FEAR. Fear of looking good and attracting attention and having to deal with that—good or bad. Fear of people being jealous and haranguing on me more than usual, although now I do have the social skills and insights to tell them to go *^&#@$ themselves. Yay me.

For me the challenge will be breaking the 200 mark. I started this journey at 238, I'm down 8 pounds in a week, and my plateau point has always been 200. So, 30 pounds to go. I honestly believe once I hit 195, I can cruise. The "last 10" or whatever pounds that people struggle with won't be a problem. Getting under 200 will. At least last night's headache wasn't a stroke, and I only had a few sips of coffee and some "BC Powder"...God's gift to pain.